I’m not sure if you’re aware, but I’ve been trying to lose weight since March 2011. I suck at math, but I’m pretty sure that’s over a year. A YEAR! In that year, I’ve lost 30 lbs. Like I’ve said before, I do know that 30 lbs is nothing to sneeze at and I’m much healthier because of it. I also know that if I told you I’ve tried everything in my power to get to goal in that time, I’d be lying. I have 30 more lbs to lose. (at least) Take a look at my Weigh in’s page and tell me what you see? A joke, right? When I look at those numbers I feel nothing but disappointment, mostly because I know I can freakin’ do this! In January, I had 3 losses in a row. Since then it’s been a roller coaster and I don’t even like roller coasters, so I want off!!
I have absolutely no one to blame but myself. I’m ultimately the one that makes the decision to eat this, drink that or sit on my ass when I should be moving. Dane will make comments saying that he’s a bad influence on me but the truth is, he’s really good about eating whatever I want when we’re at home and he cooks!! I do struggle with always making good choices when we eat out and even when you think you’re making a good choice, you don’t really know what’s in a dish at a restaurant. When I hear people that I know are trying to lose weight talk about things they ate or bad decisions they made, I actually get mad inside. I wonder why? Why would you do that when you’re on this journey to a healthier life? Who the heck am I to question someone else’s actions when I’m not even in control of my own?
This last week was good, not great but I think I did pretty good. I’ve had good weeks before that have all of the sudden gone to crap. Why? Because I haven’t been committed and I haven’t made the sacrifices I know I need to make. I don’t want it to take another year for me to lose this last 30 lbs. My cruise is exactly 4 months from today. If that’s not great motivation, I don’t know what is.
Both of my sister’s are going with me. Since we’ve been adults, I’ve always been the “fat sister” in all of our pictures. My youngest sister (who lost 70 lbs a few years ago) had a baby in June and looks really good. Of course she is discouraged because she has 10(ish) lbs to lose, but trust me, she looks good. My other sister is currently doing Weight Watchers along with me. Most of my “before” pictures are from the last cruise that I went on. I HATED every single one. I didn’t post one picture from that trip on my Facebook. (which is odd for me) I knew I was overweight, I knew I was living an unhealthy lifestyle, but for some reason that’s not what I saw in the mirror every day.
I’ve actually been pleased with my scale peeks at home this last week. I’ve been seeing under 170, which is a new low for me. I’m hoping that will continue to my meeting on Wednesday. I really do know what I need to do, it’s just a matter of applying myself and getting it done.
*rant over*
I’m going back and forth on with whether or not I should post pictures of my food on a daily basis. I’m not sure if it’s beneficial to anyone, especially since during the week I eat a lot of the same things. (i.e. yogurt/berries, banana, overnight oats, sugar free pudding, string cheese) I can still make a note at the end of each post regarding the amount of points I ate that day. I know there are at least a couple of you reading and I’d love to hear your input. 😉
Sorry to start the week off on such a somber note, I’m just a tad bit disappointed in myself. Thanks for listening and I hope you have a great Monday!
Sabrina Maryes Schuenhoff said:
Kim.. I am right there with you.. I lost 50 pounds with weight watchers before andrew was born.. I wasn’t far from my goal.. I figured the weight would come off easy after having Andrew…. Boy was I wrong.. I joined WW again after having him. I quit a few months later cause i kept cheating the system.. That was over a year ago.. still haven’t lost that weight.. You have been a wonderful encouragement to me.. yes in the short time I have know you.. I look forward to reading your post and blogs.. so much I started my own blog.. I’m not back in WW yet but trying to do it on my own.. Keep up the great work!!!
Kim said:
Sabrina, thank you so much. This really means a lot to me!! I would love to read your blog. Good luck! 🙂
Ilana said:
Hey Kim! The thing I love when reading your posts is that in general, you are treating WW as a lifestyle transformation more so than a diet, which is key. I wish someone had said to me the following at the start of my journey: “Don’t do anything now you won’t do/maintain the rest of your life.” Everyone goes out to eat and has days when they just need to crash on the couch and that’s ok. You are headed down the right path and being extremely proactive–that’s what is most important. Stick with it and you will achieve success. Also, I love seeing your food pictures and hope you continue posting them! My twitter by the way: @ChiyaMalka and my blog: ilanaspiece.weebly.com. Let me know if I can do anything to help you!!
Kim said:
Thank you for the feedback, I really appreciate it. 🙂
Libby said:
I just found your blog and I enjoy your food pics. I had a sewing blog for a while and I do know how much of your time that a blog can take up. I always appreciate when someone takes the time to blog and post pics. I am such a yo-yo dieter/exerciser. I struggle with the “all or nothing” I have lost down to 135-140 SO many times..but I cannot keep the weight off to SAVE MY LIFE!! Even now, doing good on WW, in the back of my mind i’m screaming “you cant keep the weight off, you are a quitter” sigh..this is so hard! You are an encouragement! Believe me.
Kim said:
Thank you so much. That little negative voice in the back of our head is a beast, isn’t it? 🙂
candy said:
I’m on that same roller coast, Kim. I’ve lost seven pounds in one year. I don’t even want to think what the cost per pound is. But, it is a lifestyle change and for some reason, those take time. I’m not sure if they should take this MUCH time, but I shudder to think where I might be if I didn’t go to WW. Keep pluggin’ away…we can do this!
BTW…I like seeing your food pictures. I made your peanut butter banana oatmeal choc. chip bars Saturday. Even the non-WW people loved them!
Kim said:
Thank you and I’m so glad you liked them. My boyfriend actually liked them as well and he’s not usually into the “bars” that I make. 🙂
Lori said:
Kim I recently found your blog and am on the same ww roller coaster that you are on. As I read your post today, I thought I wrote it. I have been on ww for years. i know how to cheat the system and haven’t really lost weight. I know I am wasting money but I am taking it day by day, meal by meal. Of course we are going to make poor food choices every now and then. Losing 30 pounds is a great accomplishment. Just think where you would be if you didn’t start ww march 2011. BTW I love reading or seeing what you eat daily. It gives me more ideas. Keep up the good work and don’t give up.
Kim said:
Thank you for the input! Good luck to you and you’re definitely right..day by day. 🙂
Theresa said:
I feel like I share your same story. I’ve been battling the last 15-20 lbs, and lost 40 lbs with the help of Weight Watchers, but for the last 5 years, haven’t really lost anything but the original 40…I feel like I go through these periods of losses, but then something will happen, and it becomes this roller coaster of sabotage! I woke up this morning after reading your blog (which I follow daily), you inspired me to get my butt moving more, and set my goal and actually strive for it! I am done making excuses for eating, exercising, and justifying what I’m not doing. I like reading what you eat too, as it gives me ideas when I’m hungry for something different. Thanks for your honesty in your blog– it’s truly inspiring.
Kim said:
Thank you so much for letting me know that. We can do it! 🙂
Clara said:
I hate rollercoasters which is probably why I am frustrated in my WLJ right now too. But I do think that it’s great that we are both recognizing that WE are masters of our own destiny. It’s not boyfriend’s fault. It’s not husband’s fault. It’s not the skinny girl at the gym’s fault. Let’s do this!!
Kim said:
You’re absolutely right. It’s all about US. I’m with ya. 🙂
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